One reason for which I decided to try the ‘organic farm life’ experience was to face my ‘old stuff’ that I want to let go off and definitely turn that page. Maybe because this current situation on the Big Sur farm is fairly extreme, what’s coming up is also is a little tougher. Namely learning not to take things personally and not blend into others' needs. After my first week here, this lesson is definitely coming up: The farmer here has very definite ways about doing things, including dishes, and I easily lose my ground and fall into a stress pattern of doing things right I know very well. Charlie being Italian, there’s a sense of drama to it too!
In addition, he has developed a strong friendship with the other volunteer and I feel sometimes that I have to find my place in this triangle. I wish I could just pick up the phone and share what’s going with my friends but because there’s only one landline and calling times are defined by the milking schedule, it has been tricky.
The fact that the skies have decided to throw a raging hail and rain storm tonight as I am trying to warm up the yurt with a woodstove fire is not helping me relax and get perspective on the whole thing!!! Hopefully, my socks, hooded sweater, and gloves will help… May the Force be with me!
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